This is so hard..

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are.

Future Profession

So my bestie Meg and I have started a blog that will hopefully turn into a business. See, we love throwing parties for people and we're getting good at it... so while we work for free we'll post pictures of our latest celebrations.

Enjoy! It's my passion!

http://savvyphoenician.tumblr.com/

Not to be creepy but....

I was thinking of the movie Love Actually and it made me think of the funeral scene. Which lead me to -what songs would be good at a funeral... I know a little.. macabre? hmmm yes? Oh well. Here are my "If you have any influence in 75 years when I die from chocolate induced diabetic coma, please play one of this...or like-minded music."

Death Cab for Cutie-I will follow you into the dark
http://youtu.be/j6XZsau7CSk

Beatles- Yesterday
http://youtu.be/XNnaxGFO18o

Elvis-You were always on my mind
http://youtu.be/DbpLU4oPV90

Regina Spektor-The Call
http://youtu.be/qgUL3ut4gyQ

Cat Power- Sea of Love
http://youtu.be/CbMeAOTPJzM

Jeff Buckley- Hallelujah
http://youtu.be/y8AWFf7EAc4

and if I put anymore I'll be super creepy. So maybe next entry will be, "Songs to have babies to" (not make...have) or "Songs to find out that your exboyfriend is with a girl hotter than you now, cause you ran into them at 2am at Walmart when you were wearing sweats and they were headed out to a fabulous party"

Attempt at Endurance

I don't know everything. I hardly know anything.

I need someone to be able to stay for the long haul. I need someone who can weather the good and bad times. I need consistent support and love. I need a friendly face. I need a person with compassion. I need a leader. I need a warm embrace. I need someone to appreciate what I'm doing. I need encouragement. I need someone to comfort me from my fears.

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love." 
Marilyn Monroe

Oh Super Troopers...

Mac: But our shenanigans are cheeky and fun

Thorny: And his shenanigans are cruel and tragic

And I think to myself what a wonderful world

I just moved.

Completely refreshing.

I painted 3 rooms. 3 very different colors.

I'm so happy.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops.... high above the chimney tops...that's where you'll find me.

Capsule

2 years ago it was bad for me, 1 year ago it got bad for you.

Seriously??

Why would anyone want to be with me?
Clearly I'm a bad woman and mom... lover and friend, I cheat, lie and corrupt good character.
This is some serious bullshit.

If a girl looks swell when she meets you, who gives a damn if she's late?  Nobody.  ~J.D. Salinger, Catcher in the Rye

Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
Robert Frost 

Egad

Sleeping is such a good respite.. I don't have to think.. baby is taken care of.... house isn't getting any messier.
Let's see what the holidays bring.

Downhill Turn

I need to focus on my homework. 
Sociology is going to kill me before I get the dang paperwork from whatever half-assed college I go to. The worst part is that's ok because if I went to a challenging university I couldn't keep up with the course work. The only way to make my life work is to work 8-5, Monday through Friday do homework when ever I make time  and enroll in a state university because they're cheap and offer online programs. I'm going to school to get the job I went....learning comes as a bonus.
Odd?

High Aspirations

I need to do my homework and get caught up.
I need to clean my house because my entire family is coming over for Thanksgiving.
I need to run errands.
I need to order gifts.

I need to read my Bible more.

:(

What's the Point?

What's the point of doing anything if I'm not commited to seeing it through?
What's the point of not wanting the outcome of a finished project?
What's the point of doing everything for a deep peaceful pleasure instead of being blown around in turbulent waters?
What's the point of not completing something when you know that the end result is something you want, something that makes your life better, makes it eaasier, makes you happier?
What's the point of not taking responsibility for your life? Don't you only get one?
What's the point of buying something new when it lessens your appreciation for other things?
What's the point in not giving yourself fully? Afraid of rejection? There's a thousand people that won't reject you. Afraid that your humor is stupid or your laugh is too loud? Stop it. People are insecure, the people casting dirty looks are full of insecurity. The blonde wearing Pink gear has been pushed to the side for her best friend in junior high and now has her time to shine expect that there are 2,000 "hers", the middle aged woman who can't keep that extra 20 pounds off is desperate for affirmation, and the twentysomething young man with loafers that are too nice for his budget is constantly plagued by feeling inadequate.
What's the point in not loving and losing with complete abandonement?

Bit of Bubbly

So, I'm in the infinite waiting period for this job I want, that being said I do a lot of part time work for different people.
My husband is a beginner collector of different kinds of beers and enjoys them like a cigar. Hence, the Big Pour festival in Scottsdale that he's wanted to attend. That leads me to last night at 12:30, an ungodly hour, that I looking under "gigs" on Craigslist led me to now working at the Big Pour Thursday through Saturday this weekend.
Random, Exciting, Conflict Schedules, and Tips :)
Huzzah!

Overheard

I'm listening to a conversation with two girls and one of them knows the guy next to them, he's in a class. The problem is that he doesn't speak very good English and has no sense of humor (no accent though...suspicious), he's like "what's your name I want to find you on Facebook" or "your mom called and she said to give me a couple dollars".
Girl: My name is Zeno
Boy: Zena?
Girl: No Zenoooooo
Boy: ok I got it Zena, and can you speak with your hands more I don't understand what you're saying.

or

Boy: What are you doing?
Girl: Writing a paper on how distracting Facebook is... just kidding
Boy: Oh well it looks like you're doing good research do you need an interview?
Girl: I was just kidding
Boy: About what?


LOL